Doing what I go to do, to get where I want to be. Doing this as healthy as possible. 5'2. I'm not keeping track of my weight because. I'm doing this on how I feel, on how I see myself. I am not just a number.
Striving.
Scarlett Johansson
You know how I was saying people were calling my girl Scarlett fat? This was the image that apparently proved it.
Idiots. She’s amazing.
can i please have her boddddy
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I need to seriously get my ass back in shape.
Summer is so close & if I plan on going to the beach every single day, I’m pretty sure that I need my old body back at least.
Ugh.
Okay guys I decided to post this now! I’ve been waiting a super long time to post my progress photo of my jeans!
The very top is a size 20 and the bottom one is a size 9. :) Sure I still have a muffin top/love handles with the size 9, but I can wear the damn things in public! :)
I never really noticed how heavy I was until right now. lol. And I never really noticed how much my body has changed since October.
almost 40 pounds down, 40-50 pounds more to go!
AWESOME VISUAL!
omg :)
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I used to always step on a scale and worry about how heavy I am.
But I’ve learned that’s what got me to an eating disorder.
Counting calories, making sure the numbers go down on the scale, all of it. It started to control me, instead of me controlling it.
And it was the most terrifying things in my life. My mind was telling me one thing, my body was telling me another. I was always hungry. Always. But the little voice in my head said “you ate too much already.”
But I’m stronger than that now.
I still hear that little voice, but this time I talk back. This time I fight back and realize I am emotionally stronger than I was a few years ago. I still have those moments where the voice wins for a day or two, but I bounce right back.
I am in control of my body.
It won’t ever control me, ever again.
Since I didn’t work out except maybe ONCE last week, I’ve noticed how much my body disliked me.
I feel so unmotivated and my body is just screaming at me to do something.
I hate it. But school AND work has got me busy since I have so much shit to do from 8-5 during the weekdays.
I need to stop making excuses and start making more time.
Sigh.
